I'm meant to be revising for a pretend exam that is next Saturday.  but I find my mind drifting and I'll put it all off to the last minute.  Not sure why I wanted to get a degree now.  I'm definitely not student material. I do ok in my assignments and exams but I'm not spectacularly smart or able.

I guess I wanted a degree because I never got the chance earlier in life.  I was stuck in a job going nowhere with few qualifications and wanted to do something better.  Now I hear horror stories of graduates working for minimum wage because the jobs aren't there and I wonder what will count for more in a few years...education or experience.

Another reason for getting a degree is so that I can support myself.  Right now himself and I are financially co-dependent.  Part of me wants to change that so that I can take over the mortgage if and when I ever get round to separating from him.  I suppose I'm lucky in that we still get along and he thinks everything is ok with our marriage so I have no urgent need to get away from him.  But I do worry that I'll leave it to late and I'll end up wishing my life away.

Last reason, again financial, is to save up for my dream home on a beach.  I know this is an entirely unrealistic dream but it keeps me going thinking that one day, probably when the parents and the children are gone, I'm just gonna walk away from my life and go somewhere else. To do that I need cash, to get that I need a good job and to find that I need educated.

Life sucks!!

So back to my dissection of the welfare state and it's changes in the last 60+ years. Strangely I covered it on a previous, higher graded module so I'm just making sure I'm writing what they want to hear rather than what I remember :)