Going out shortly. Going to take a drive out by the coast to where I grew up (it's only 20 mins away from where I live now).   I'm gonna sit there and listen to the sea and feel calm then try and spend an evening with some acquaintances.

I'm grieving the loss of a friend. The same friend I forgave last year.  I got annoyed at her over something minor and for whatever reason this has caused her to blank me and cut me out of her life.  I don't know what will happen tomorrow or next week or next month but as far as I'm concerned we're done.  I can only take so much of being wrong all the time before I go crazy

Maybe it is me who is in the wrong. My best friend and soulmate tells me that I'm ok. But then he's biased.  It's hard to get an honest opinion.  All I know is I try to do my best and I seem to get it wrong everytime.

Anyway, off to listen to the waves...